Just gotta get this out there.
I suppose first, a quick update. Since this time last year, I split up with the ex gf, started dating, fell in love with, and married my best friend and one of the most genuinely good people I’ve ever known in my life. It’s no doubt that I have my issues by any means, but she’s stuck through them, helped me grow, heal old wounds, and learn how to actually live again.
I was accused of leaving my ex for her. This is absolutely not true. I can’t say the interest wasn’t there, but it was withheld on both parts. I left bc my wife helped me realize that I shouldn’t settle for content when I could have happy. And I’m grateful to her for it.
We’ve been married for 9 months. A couple months ago, we found out Jen may not be able to ever have babies, then 10 days ago found out she was pregnant.
And today we found out the embryo isn’t forming, and has a 10% chance of making it. She has a blighted ovum.
And now we’re both just trying to cope, each in our own different way, trying to be there for the other as best we can.
I’ve never felt love so constant and intense as I do with Jen. I’ve never before been in a relationship where I significantly love someone more after being with them a year and a half (not that many have ever made it that long). I’m usually bored or tired of someone/dealing with someone else long before. But I can’t visualize the future with us not together. It doesn’t work. I’m a lame sappy dork, this whole paragraph is full of bad writing, and has an unnecessary amount of cliches on the verge of appearing at every line.
I think this was originally intended to talk about the baby, but when you start writing what needs to come out is what comes out.
